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CD | Mixed Genre
CD | Alternative - Indie Rock
Cassette | Theme - Narrative
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If I saw you would I be too afraid to say "I'm Sorry"?

Side A
Artist Song Buy
Mike Doughty  Madeline and Nine  buy on itunes
Tori Amos  Lovesong (live)  buy on itunes
INXS  Beautiful Girl  buy on itunes
Ani DiFranco  Not a Pretty Girl  buy on itunes
Queen  You Take My Breath Away  buy on itunes
Franki Valli  Can't Take My Eyes Off of You  buy on itunes
Albert King  The Very Thought of You  buy on itunes
Jonny Lang & Susan Tedeschi  Opposites Attract  buy on itunes
The Cautions  Coffee Shop Girl  buy on itunes
Ray Charles  No One  buy on itunes
Muddy Waters  She Moves Me  buy on itunes
Mance Lipscomb  I Want to Do Something for You  buy on itunes
Otis Rush  Love That Woman  buy on itunes
The Raconteurs  Together  buy on itunes
David Gray  Sail Away  buy on itunes
Joe South  Games People Play  buy on itunes
Otis Redding  It's Too Late  buy on itunes
Jimmy Reed  I Ain't Got You  buy on itunes
Martin Sexton  Where Did I Go Wrong?  buy on itunes
Carole King  So Far Away  buy on itunes
download  The First Side  buy on itunes
Side B
ArtistSongBuy
Joe Bonamassa  Reconsider Baby  buy on itunes
Magic Slim  Just To Be With You  buy on itunes
The Commitments  Try A Little Tenderness  buy on itunes
Jimmy McCracklin  Hurt Me  buy on itunes
Ryan Adams  Why Do They Leave  buy on itunes
Ane Brun  My Lover Will Go  buy on itunes
Cary Brothers  Forget About You  buy on itunes
Radiohead  High and Dry  buy on itunes
Sister Machine Gun  Admit  buy on itunes
Roy Orbison  Crying  buy on itunes
Jim Croce  Photographs and Memories  buy on itunes
Alexi Murdoch  Love You More  buy on itunes
Jason Mraz  I'm Yours  buy on itunes
Joshua Radin  These Photographs  buy on itunes
Morrissey  To Me You Are a Work of Art  buy on itunes
The Fray  She Is  buy on itunes
Cookie & The Cupcakes  Got You On My Mind  buy on itunes
Johnny Cash  Memories Are Made of This  buy on itunes
Bo Diddley  I'm Sorry  buy on itunes
James Morrison  Better Man  buy on itunes
download  The Second Side  buy on itunes

Comment:

Stop me if you've heard this one before...

Madalyn was the special one, the perfect one... the one that got away. Except that isn't how it works, is it? Maddy didn't get away, I drove her away.

Sometimes in relationships we do stupid, stupid things, and looking back at my all-too-short relationship with Maddy, I realize just how aggressively idiotic I can actually be. She didn't deserve it. She was perfect; fiercely intelligent, brimming with vitality, far too beautiful for the likes of me. My friends knew. They told me over and over how perfect we were, how well we fit. And it was true, except I ignored the truth of it, because I wanted to be a miserable fuck. She brought out the best in me, so I dug down to dredge up the worst. She made me feel young, so I acted like we were old. I didn't want happiness, even though it was right there. What kind of fool willingly rejects happiness?

I think about Maddy a lot. I haven't seen her in a few years, and I wish I still saw her every day. I wish I could apologize to her every day. I wish... but on the other hand, I'm desperately afraid that some day I might bump into her, and what could I possibly have to say? It's just too late for sorry.

The mix doesn't follow the relationship, exactly; it's far too colored by my feelings of now to accurately depict things as they were. And while I've clearly tapped into my inner Zach Braff here (someone will get that), Maddy would appreciate it. She was a sucker for singer/songwriters. I think she'd love this mix, and if I knew where she was, I'd give it to her.

SOME COMMENTARY ON CHOICES

1-1 The first time I heard this, it became "Maddy's song".
1-3 She struck me as a lost girl. Those eyes, those gorgeous eyes...
1-4 She loved Ani, and she sang this all the time. She was totally wrong, because she was a pretty girl.
1-5 She totally took my breath away. And a gorgeous song to boot.
1-6 I met Maddy at the coffee shop she worked at. I sat and stared at her the whole time. A normal girl would have been frightened. Maddy gave me her phone number.
1-9 My friend gave this to me on a mix after I stared dating her. The bastard.
1-20 Maddy sang in public for the first time when she was with me. This is what she sang, a spot-on rendition. Who'd have thought?

2-6 There's no doubt in my mind that Maddy loves Ane Brun; it's one of those gotta-bes.
2-8 We have the same favorite Radiohead song.
2-10 I did see her a few months after we broke up. I got in the car afterward, and this was playing on the radio. Fucking timing....
2-11 She had an unhealthy liking for Jim Croce. Too bad it fits.
2-20 This song could be the entire mix. It's all I need.
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Feedback:

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Barrydali
Date: 1/29/2008
It seems somewhat hollow to comment on the subject matter lest I slip in to "chin up, plenty more fish in the sea" territory but I will say It's a good thing you are doing now.

Accepting responsibility and being aware of one's own deficiencies isn't a trait that a lot of people possess, at least in my experience. It is in my book though, a trait to be admired for whatever that's worth.

I love a load of these songs Gabe, and even the few I don't I can understand why they are there and why this needs to be so.
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Rob Conroy
Date: 1/29/2008
Jesus, those notes are sad and this mix is beautiful. I used to have a "Maddy," too, long ago and she haunted me until my latest relationship (with SQ, of course). You will eventually figure it out, I promise.
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anthony lombardi
Date: 1/29/2008
there's no mix that can quite stop my heart dead like the break-up mix - all my favorite songs ever are break-up songs, all my favorite albums ever are break-up albums. lots of these songs really hit me where it hurts, so kudos for compiling such a genuinely affecting mix. your liner notes reminded me of annie hall - not a bad thing at all. i admire your honesty; keep your head up.
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gabechouinard
Date: 1/29/2008
I can't help but think I'm giving the impression that I'm miserably depressed, which isn't the case! I just like writing and mixing about sad subjects, I guess. Just keep in mind I'm smiling when I type. And thanks for the comments!
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sammyg123
Date: 1/29/2008
I often think about all the girls/women in my life that got away. I often think what would have happened had previous relationships worked. Well, I wouldn't have my Ava had things have been different. So I thank my lucky stars...
Your liner notes were very poetic..
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doowad
Date: 1/29/2008
At least you recognized the asshole you were, hopefully you won't need to come to the end of a relationship to look in the mirror next time.As a fellow asshole myself, I have to remind myself of that daily, or at least weekly.As far as the mix goes, I personally prefer the blacker aspects, but it would be presumptuous of any of us to critique the choice of tunes on this. Looks like catharsis. And it wasn't like you put Dirge on there or anything, so that is hopeful.
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mahdishain
Date: 1/29/2008
excellent mix with some nice song selections, superior notes, and the cover art, well now we understand.Live, Love, Learn.
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blasikin
Date: 1/29/2008
Thanks for letting us benefit from your misery (catharsis?) Your recents are the best new thing around here in a long while.
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Funky Ratchet
Date: 1/30/2008
Perfectly and wistfully heartfelt. And I second blasikin - have really been enjoying your recent mixes.
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Barrydali
Date: 1/30/2008
Good call Derek. Congrats Mr Chouinard.
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KathrynandRupert
Date: 1/30/2008
I think my heart is breaking. Such plangent notes. Really eye-watering stuff.
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gabechouinard
Date: 1/30/2008
Thanksthanksthanks, everybody thanks!
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Mark Petruccelli
Date: 1/30/2008
This really does hit it in the center. Thanks for sharing the tunes and the backstory. (and congrats.)
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buglady
Date: 1/30/2008
Beautiful mix and story...
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bufo alvarius
Date: 1/30/2008
Wow, dude...heartbreakingly beautiful (notes and mix). Spent most of the last year and a half making nothing but break-up mixes myself, but I'm such a sucker for the sad stuff anyways. That Raconteurs track fuckin' slays me every time, just like a good break-up song should, I guess. Congrats on MOTW.
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anthony lombardi
Date: 1/30/2008
i'm really glad this has gotten the attention it deserves, esp. through MOTW honors - utterly worthy. congrats
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Mesh
Date: 1/30/2008
Very touching. Congrats on MOTW.
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theholytoast
Date: 1/31/2008
I think ... maybe ... I just want to huggles you. If you made me pick a favorite it'd be Opposites Attract. I really like that Lang & Tedeschi track. It's true I have an unhealthy liking for Young Mr. Lang, but he's no Jim Croce. ;-)
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French Connection
Date: 1/31/2008
Nice one, choc full o' singer song writers and no Dylan that's perfect in my book, coulda done without Radiohead but hey ho. Onwards and upwards here on in, wishing all things good for you.
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DJ Karen Adams
Date: 1/31/2008
The Commitments, not unlike this mix, are fookin' deadly!
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Skipper Bartlett
Date: 1/31/2008
This puts a lump in my throat. Sweet and very deserving of MotW.
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musicgnome
Date: 2/1/2008
Congrats! Your commentary is moving, as is this mix.
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Bear
Date: 2/2/2008
Heartfelt stuff. Funny how we can screw up sometimes. I hope you sort it out man.
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sbessg
Date: 2/3/2008
Thank you for this. It is absolutely lovely, as are your explanations. I can't stop listening to the whole thing, but you are right: the last track is the fullest expression of this mix. Amazing.
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highanddriving
Date: 2/4/2008
A deserving MOTW. Congrats, its really beautiful.
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Media Vixen: Radio Sally
Date: 2/4/2008
Lovely. Beautiful. Heartbreaking.
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buglady
Date: 2/6/2008
Congrats on a well-deserved MOTW!
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gobi
Date: 2/7/2008
Congratulations on MOTW . . . . Brilliantly written explanation.
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Mr. Mirage
Date: 2/8/2008
.... ditto ....
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G-Sphere
Date: 2/9/2008
Congrats on MOTW. Sorry I missed it earlier. Great collection that does what you put it together to do.
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SwankQueen
Date: 2/10/2008
Awwww, I missed this one, too -- I don't get out much (online). Wonderful mix and sentiment. The best you can do is learn from the past.
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senatorhung
Date: 4/18/2008
nice mix and notes.

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