always the last to know & the first to cry

Artist Song Buy
mount eerie  "let's get out of the romance"  buy on itunes
okkervil river  "our life is not a movie or maybe"  buy on itunes
bright eyes  "sunrise, sunset"  buy on itunes
wolf parade  "grounds for divorce"  buy on itunes
the magnetic fields  "all the umbrellas in london"  buy on itunes
radiohead  "nude"  buy on itunes
beat happening  "cry for a shadow"  buy on itunes
nick cave & the bad seeds  "as i sat sadly by her side"  buy on itunes
the posies  "please return it"  buy on itunes
the pernice brothers  "7:30"  buy on itunes
belle & sebastian  "the boy done wrong again"  buy on itunes
buddy holly  "raining in my heart"  buy on itunes
margot & the nuclear so and so's  "on a freezing chicago street"  buy on itunes
she & him  "change is hard"  buy on itunes
neko case  "i wish i was the moon"  buy on itunes
drive-by truckers  "sounds better in the song"  buy on itunes
tom waits  "down there by the train"  buy on itunes
sunset rubdown  "shut up i am dreaming of places where lovers have wings"  buy on itunes
johnny thunders  "you can't put your arms round a memory"  buy on itunes

Comment:

before anything else, i want to thank everyone from the pit of my heart who replied with their support on my last mix; i appreciate it more than i can even begin to verbalize.

i feel a little melodramatic & a bit embarrassed about the cryptic explanation (or lack thereof) on the aforementioned posted mix; kind of like the explosive drunk man at a party who storms out after making a total emotional fool of himself. it's in my own self-defense that i feel i was at least partly within reason given what has been the condition of my life recently, & i'd like to shed some light on that right now. over the course of one week, i broke up with my girlfriend, lost my job, had to give up my car & permanently severed ties with someone who's been close to my heart for a very long time. i'm slowly picking up the pieces, but the aftermath may prove to be even more difficult to get through than the demise itself. i want to extoll my deepest, most sincere gratitude to everyone here's support: you guys really are the best.

as for the mix itself, i threw this together over the course of a painstaking day filled with plenty of wallowing, self-pity & sulking. what else is a broken-hearted music geek to do when he's unemployed & freshly single? well, that & bum around at the record store for far longer than is accepted or normal (both of which have been all-too-common lately). the title is from the pernice brothers track.

Feedback:

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gabechouinard
Date: 5/13/2008
Awww, man, you're making me weep. And trust me, I *know* how you feel, having gone through (and still going through) basically the same thing. Ya ever need to chat, send me an email.

Oh, and nice mix. Naturally.
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mahdishain
Date: 5/13/2008
could be worse. you could have got a country mix out of it. soon it will be time for a high energy rock and roll blowout mix.
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sammyg123
Date: 5/14/2008
Yeah, I was devastated after the break up of a long term relationship back in '01. I just did what a bloke's gotta do, drank lots of beer had lots of promiscous sex. Few years later met someone else, now I've got the most beautiful daughter. And I don't give the ex a second thought.
And the mix? Lovely..
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Rebel Princess
Date: 5/14/2008
Self-pity and sulking is one of the cornerstones in civilization. Great mix, especially like 3 & 15, and Nick Cave is always brilliant. And remember, you have to reach rock bottom before you can climb up to the top!
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doowad
Date: 5/14/2008
Hey, we are here for each other at the Church of AOTM, count on us.

Regarding the mix, , the Buddy Holly and Tom Waits are all I need to see to label it perfect.
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DJ Abstract
Date: 5/14/2008
Mag Fields, RHead, Waits, and Cave? Please, keep me away from the sharp objects...

Life will go on, though, and you'll find somebody better. God knows anyone with this taste in tunes deserves it.
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Mark Petruccelli
Date: 5/14/2008
The 15 - 17 run is stunning. Great Mag Fields, Cave and Pernice picks too. BTW, that's what record stores are for.
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Funky Ratchet
Date: 5/14/2008
This is fabulous, Anthony...my favorite parts being 7-9 and the closer, and one of my very favorite Waits tracks too. Your notes suggest maybe you've begun your first steps down the road of coping - hope that's the case.
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Media Vixen: Radio Sally
Date: 5/14/2008
Anthony, must say I have just (for about two weeks) climbed out of the worst three months (maybe) of my life. Every time the telephone rang, it was another level of misery. Killah mix, though! Can't wait to hear it.
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buglady
Date: 5/14/2008
Another super mix, Anthony. It sounds like you are working through all of this in the best way possible... funny how favorite record stores feel like home, isn't it? Keep up the mixing, and hang in there! I had a similarly crappy week 20 years ago... but it led to all the good things I am grateful for today.
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sbessg
Date: 5/14/2008
I hope you're on the up-slope now; we like you bunches 'round here, after all. It has to be said, though, that you've worked your pain into awesome work lately: this is an excellent mix, as was the last one.That being said, feel better soon. My comment should in no way be seen as encouragement to stay sad! :-)<3 Sara
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Ken Harris
Date: 5/14/2008
Sorry for the torment you're going through. Music and record shops have a way of deflecting a bit of the pain. And I agree with Mahdishain, we appreciate that your choices weren't outta the country record bin...Hang in my friend...
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bufo alvarius
Date: 5/14/2008
Jeebus, Anthony! I feel for ya, my friend. Several of these tracks were in HEAVY rotation for me over the last year and a half of coping with a lot of similar, stressful shit. That Posies track and the DBT song STILL just kill me every time I hear 'em. Hang in there, man.
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sport !
Date: 5/14/2008
Another great one. I hope that things get better soon.
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Mixxer
Date: 5/14/2008
Well she better give back that old T-shirt.

Nice picks.
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divinyl
Date: 5/14/2008
Many musicians create their best work in periods of sadness. I'd say the same goes for mixers and mixes.
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G-Sphere
Date: 5/14/2008
A great mix for getting on the rebound.
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Summer Anne Burton
Date: 5/14/2008
wow. i'm excited about this, assuming this is what you're sending (whenever you get to it, kay?)... i love what i know and i don't know nearly all of it: the perfect thing for a mix trade. as for what i do know, i love love love love love the stretch from 2-6, the she & him track, the neko track, and waits o' course. lovely. i hope you're feeling better -- i'm working on your mix right now and maybe just maybe it can help a little.
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KathrynandRupert
Date: 5/15/2008
No need to defend yourself considering what's happened. Another good mix, shame it had to come out of personal misery. Wishing you the best.
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Moe
Date: 5/15/2008
As my pal Howard J. once said -- "Things can only get better." At least your self-pity resulted in one fantastic mix. Hopefully future ones will be more optimistic :) You'll always have your friends here at AOTM, as long as the site doesn't crash and burn.
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Nomates
Date: 5/15/2008
This is the stuff, Anthony. Haunting, healing and harmonious. Mister Bluebird will be on your shoulder sooner than you think...shhhh..I hear the flutter of...
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strange loop
Date: 5/15/2008
Radiohead and Tom Waits are great for the tough times. That Buddy Holly song and Neko are great too.Hope things start looking up for you soon! : )
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dice
Date: 5/15/2008
I'm sorry to hear about what's happened to you -- and I've been there myself. but I do know that it gets better over time and that you're doing the best thing you can do right now, making this mix. hang in there. you've got yourself a big family here at AOTM. *hugs* nice mix.
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The Cat Mandu
Date: 5/16/2008
it's getting better all the time (it couldn't get much worse).
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Bear
Date: 5/16/2008
Bad times man, you always come out of them but they're the pits to go through. Wallowing and playing great music like this will always help.
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musicgnome
Date: 5/19/2008
Wonderful. Wonderful. Wonderful!!!!
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Salman1
Date: 5/20/2008
Man, your last two mixes are fabulous. I hope everything turns better fast for you.
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jaime b
Date: 5/30/2008
:( we are sailing in the same boat now my friend. let's hope for choppy seas, i heard sailors go insane on lonely calm waters.
think i'll make one too. i raise my winebox to you!
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cassiopea
Date: 6/4/2008
My best to you in this hard time. I just went through similarly unpleasant period myself. If it helps, I'm in love with your music.

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