i struggle so hard for each breath that i take.

Artist Song Buy
owen  note to self:  buy on itunes
maritime  pearl  buy on itunes
the new trust  chill the fuck out  buy on itunes
jets to brazil  the frequency  buy on itunes
radiohead  i want none of this  buy on itunes
get him eat him  diminutive  buy on itunes
metric  blindness  buy on itunes
okkervil river  no easy way down  buy on itunes
the good life  i am an island  buy on itunes
phantom planet  lonely day  buy on itunes
the weakerthans  fallow  buy on itunes
copeland  strange and unexpected  buy on itunes
the new pornographers  adventures in solitude  buy on itunes
the velvet teen  penning the penultimate  buy on itunes


60 minutes. in a nutshell: i'm jaded, displaced, confused, depressed, reclusive and alone. yet it's not a bad thing. each day i feel various feelings and i continue to savor them and keep on living. i don't know if things will ever "get better" or if i'll always feel this way in varying degrees, with elation continuing to be short and fleeting. but recently i've come to the terms with the fact that maybe this is me. maybe i'm too insightful, too mistrusting, too broken to ever be perfectly "fixed". and if that's the case, if the slightly-negative emotive self is the deepest expression of myself i'll ever reach, i can accept it and i can embrace it and i can realize that "happy" doesn't have to have an absolute definition, because happy means something different to everyone.


Date: 8/17/2009
Well said.^_^ And I favorited this mix!*****

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