Artist	Song
The Circle Jerks	Deny Everything
Dead Kennedys	Too Drunk to Fuck
Opeartion Ivy	Jaded
Nirvana	Rape Me
Social Distortion	The Creeps (live)
Bad Religion	Pity
Radiohead	Electioneering
Joy Division	Shadowplay
The Faint	Worked Up So Sexual
Weezer	Tired of Sex
Bright Eyes	The Calendar Hung Itself
The Offspring	Session
Strung Out	Ultimate Devotion
The Clash	White Riot
The Damned	Smash It Up
Bad Brains	Pay to Cum
MC5	Kick Out the Jams
Propaghandi	Ladies Nite In Loserville
AFI	Cruise Control
Strung Out	Just Like Me
Good Riddance	A Credit to His Gender
Operation Ivy	Sleep Long
The Pixies	Break My Body
Mission of Burma	Eyes of Men
The Strokes	Trying Your Luck
New Order	Bizarre Love Triangle
The Rolling Stones	Paint It Black
The Cure	Love Will Tear Us Apart (Joy Division cover)

Comment:

Oh what can I possibly say except this mix depresses the hell out of me. Last year hearlded the peaks and valleys of my young life, but it's easier to concentrate on those valleys because they were sooo low. Without a doubt the most thouroughly upsetting year of my life (this year being among the best however). It all has to do with a girl as well, but I guess any horrible time spent in school has at least something to do with a girl...I never meant to reciprocate her feelings for me and when I finally did she dealt me a shocking blow by falling for someone else (someone awful mind you, a drug dealing stoner saxophone masta) and thus I began my quest to win her back, more to prove to myself and the world that I was not a fluke of her emotions and that I was way cooler than that Advanced Jazz Band bastard...Going through all of these songs in detail would break my spirit ten times over but here are some tiny explanations for a few of them. The mix is divided between songs that remind me of that awful time because of their subject matter and songs that remind me of that awful time for various other reasons. Lots of sexual typed songs because that was the buzz word last year (no wait...the buzz word was making love...). "Jaded" is there because she taught me to look through this world with jaded eyes and thus every horrible event will seem less horrible because I now expect horrible things to happen. "The Creeps" because she used to give me the creeps with her eyes alone..."Pity" because for a time I pitied her and all those like her. "Electioneering" and "White Riot" beacuase they are the songs I associate with walking to her house at about noon (Electioneering) and walking home and coming face to face with cruel crisp winter air (White Riot). "Kick out the Jams" because once when she was playing around on my bass she said for no apparent reason, "Let's kick out the jams." and I found that incredibly endearing. The telling line in "Ladies Nite in Loserville" is "i fuck to cum, don't lay your repressed shit on me, I fuck to cum, fuck your blessed trinity"...So girls want sex as well do they? Great..."Session" is about a guy and a girl who have a no strings attached relationship of sex with no titles and how it isn't clear if he's got it made or if he wants something more (you want something more you damned fool!) and the AFI song has the infamous chorus of "I don't want to fuck you, don't want to fuck you, I don't want to fuck you, don't want to fuck you, So fuck you!". Once again, I never intend to me a notch on anyone's belt. "A Credit to His Gender" is about the double standard of the sexes, the important line is "You call her a whore, she's just the same as you, but she could never be that shallow." And yes, I did call her a whore, and yes I do regret it. "Paint it Black" is represented because towards the end of her relationship with the saxophone fool she and I were discussing what color to paint her room (her door included I suppose) and I said, "Paint it black," to an incredulous reaction. She missed the reference I guess. "Bizarre Love Triangle" is obvious and "Love Will Tear Us Apart" is even more so. Anyway...For an update on that whole situation a few months after all this shit went down she gave me an engagement ring and asked me to marry her. I respectively declined. For now...

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