Artist	Song
Gemma Hayes	Back of My Hand
Tears for Fears	Head Over Heels
Big Head Todd & the Monsters	Bittersweet
The Beatles	Don't Let Me Down
Doves	Satellites
Crowded House	Fall at Your Feet
The Sheila Divine	Every Year
Dashboard Confessional	Hands Down
Ed Harcourt	Apple of My Eye
Shea Seger	Clutch
Jeff Buckley	Your Flesh is So Nice
Bright Eyes	Lover I Don't Have to Love
Elbow	Asleep in the Back
Beth Orton & Ryan Adams	Concrete Sky
Get Up Kids	Overdue
Bernard Butler	Not Alone

Comment:

I don't know if narrative is an appropriate classification for this, but it kind of morphed into one. This mix started out as me feeling sorry for myself because I continue to allow this guy to hurt my feelings. I HAD kind of considered him a friend, but I'm trying to rethink that. I haven't known him for very long and when we first met he was super cool and he made me laugh and we flirted a LOT and we had lots of fun. Then something happened and now he's totally different. He tends to ignore me and crazy though it seems, it hurts my feelings. But I can't help this completely undeserved, ill advised affection I have for him. It'd be easier to get over it if I didn't keep catching him watching me when I see him out, but not in a stalker kind of way- in that forlorn way that says I screwed up royally but I'm a guy and I'm too stupid to admit it so I'll just treat you like crap.

Anyway... this mix ended up with a kind of "I love him, I hate him, I'm over him" feel to it, at least for me. I'm actually pretty pleased with it. The title is from the Big Head Todd song and actually applies to the mix and to my life right now. This whole "acquaintanceship" is pretty much made up of us working our ways around each other. I have a crush on him, I'm about 95% sure that he likes me too, but neither of us is going to say anything. It's all very high school. We just spend our time together trying not to pay attention to the other while simultaneously attempting to attract the other's attention. It's really a sad situation now that I see it in print. But that's how it is. Thanks for letting me vent, kids.

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