Artist	Song
neutral milk hotel	where you'll find me now
kind of like spitting	continent
june of 44	does your heart beat slower?
the anniversary	til we earned a holiday
arab on radar	birth control blues
copeland	walking downtown
azure ray	the drinks we drank last night
american football	for sure
rilo kiley	pictures of success
snow patrol	chased by... I dont know what
grandaddy	O.K. with my decay
denali	the instinct
dismemberment plan	time bomb

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This was last year. 2003.
where you'll find me now January: this was when a bunch of girls decided that they would beat the shit out of me and this was my hiding song. Hiding from those girls who wanted to kick my ass, hiding from my "friend" who sided with them all of a sudden for no reason.
continent February: This was the month my friend since 5th grade commmited suicide. It seemed like merely two days after everybody was laughing and going through the same old god damn routine. "its been 3 weeks and no one talks about you anymore"
does your heart beat slower March: This was my time of healing from all the bullshit I was going through at that point. I was tire of swallowing pills for my head and I wanted to just get out. Around this time my friendships started to deteriorate, I felt like I wanted to get everything that reminded me of him out of my life. "take down your art, shame shame shame shame"
till we earned a holidayApril: I was ashamed of myself and what I had done in March and I felt like I wanted to go back to my friends because I missed how it was before but I had nothing to show them that would make them believe that i had changed. "I have nothing to show for you I never wanted to play the fool for you"
birth control blues May: this is when I decided to let everything go down the crapper and I just didn't give a shit.
walking downtown June: Summer, this was when I escaped through various thing, but most of all, I did what I needed to. I got out of the house, went downtown, went to shows, whatever I could do to keep myself from being completely along. "we were walking downtown, yeah, your favorite part of town"
the drinks we drank last night summer in general: there's nothing really to say about this, I drank a lot during the summer. This was when I was home and alone. "if you could feel this pain inside, it's from the drinks we drank last night"
for sure july: the month of my birth. It was me another year old and building myself back up. I wasn't all the way there but I was getting there. "we're relatively stable and tentatively able"
pictures of success august: the start of another school year. I was excited but I wasn't ready for what came with all the pressures of school
chased by...I dont know september: I couldn't see where i was going this month. School had started and I was already failing, it was like a pit of uncontrollability.
O.K. with my decay october: I didn't even care what I was doing anymore. I felt like I could change nothing bad about me, I was failing completely and I decided I wasn't going to try anymore.
the instinct november: I wanted to go back so back and redo what I could this month. I felt like it was too late for me to change anything, but I wanted to anyways . "Instead of wasting time I'd like to rewind"
time bomb december: truth be told i felt like I was going to blow up at any second. I couldn't afford to get my family presents for christmas but in the end i was kind of happy that I had learned from everything that happened over the last year.

But of course I made up for all my missing misery on new years.

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