Mike Eternity

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That One Perfect Lilly

Artist Song
Queen  I Want to Break Free 
Green Day  Extraordinary Girl 
Van Morrison  Brown Eyed Girl 
School of Fish  Three Strange Days 
Social Distortion  Angel's Wings 
David Bowie  Starman 
Fountains of Wayne  All Kinds of Time 
Peter Gabriel  Solsbury Hill 
Kath Bloom  Come Here 
Little Texas  What Might Have Been 
Matthew Sweet  Farther Down 
Travis  Side 
Cake  Shadow Stabbing 
Love Spit Love  Am I Wrong 
Mike Ness  Don't Think Twice 
Lou Reed  This Magic Moment 
Eve 6  Girlfriend 
Built to Spill  Strange 
Stellastarr  My Coco 
Bright Eyes  June on the West Coast 
Eagle Eye Cherry  To Love Somebody 
Norah Jones  The Nearness of You 
Michael Bolton  Go the Distance 


I've been in an esoteric mood for the past few days. I've grown hopelessly infatuated with this great, sweet, beautiful, damn near perfect-for-me girl at work over the past year (she doesn't know how I feel)...thing is I'm in a serious relationship right now, and though we have our problems, we still care about each other a hell of a lot. I got plenty of flaws, but I could never hurt the feelings of the woman I'm currently dating; even if I WANTED to break up with her, I don't think I could, just because I'm so paranoid about hurting other people. And I know, this inspires the classic argument "well you're only hurting her more by staying with her if you don't care about her", or "with a lie hanging over you guys", but I still DO love her, and while I could personally handle breaking up with her, I could (and most likely will) just as easily maintain our relationship without letting this situation effect either of us. I'll forget about/manage to deal with unresolved feelings for Lilly, the girl at work, in due time assuming I don't actually do something about it (and knowing me, I probably won't), but right now I can't get her off my mind, and it's kinda made me equal parts sad and excited but with fatalistic overtones. Anyway, I've somehow been left with a lot of free time today and I just don't seem to know what to do with myself, no doubt as a result of my mixed emotions at the moment (I'm also hung up on what a failure I've been at life up to this point). So being all antsy, vaguely sorrowful, and uncertain, I thought I should try making a mix. It may look a little (or a lot) random, but all the songs are connected in some way in my mind at least. Hope it's not too much of an eyesore


Date: 10/26/2004
Take heart (and follow your heart). The creativity fed by your emotions is what makes the best mixes. No matter how the "scene" plays out, this mix will stay with you.
Date: 4/10/2005
The mix is an interesting mix. I would like to hear how this situation played out - especially since I find a lot of similarities between your situation and mine. E-mail me at tidyparty@yahoo.com if you get the chance.