Artist	Song
Ben Gibbard	You Remind Me of Home
Copeland	Priceless
The Go Find	The Party
Death Cab For Cutie	Crooked Teeth
Stars	Sleep Tonight
Boom Bip	The Matter
Styrofoam	Snow Crush Killing Song
Caribou	Hello Hammerheads
Dashboard Confessional	The Brilliant Dance
Colin Hay	I Just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You
American Analog Set	Know By Heart
The Postal Service	Clark Gable
Coldplay	Yellow
Iron & Wine	Such Great Heights (Postal Service Cover)
Neutral Milk Hotel	In the Aeroplane Over the Sea
Jenny Lewis with the Watson Twins	Happy
Ben Gibbard	They Don't Know

Comment:

I really like all my mixes to have a narrative to them at the very least, if they fall short of telling a story. This is a mix I made when I ended up getting back together with my on/off boyfriend of three years, after the longest seperation since we've known each other, during which I did not speak to him. I didn't intend to end upwith him again, but I think we've both surrendered and know we're getting married. This CD, however, is sort of bittersweet in that it narrates the uncertainity and love that is our relationship, and all the painful hurt that stands between us. The Ben Gibbard track is a perfect into, cause every time we get back together, it really is like coming home, but it's a house that, while old and familiar, is also cracked and peeling. "You're wasting your life," is pretty much everyone's definition of our relationship, but we curve around each other and there's really nothing better. Track 2 echoes the sentiment of desperate need and love, but even it is slightly off, with "take me for granted," echoing the willingness to cling no matter what. Track three starts out with "I'm a mess," and the lyrics are sung by an underappreciated lover who just wishes their partner would relax. Track 4 is sort of a counter to that, it's the giddy love we're capable of, but Track 5 once again counters that sweetness. There's a love, but it's built one tenuous, careless ground. In this song you can't "build nothing at all if there was nothing there all along," which echoes nicely, "the foundation" that is "crumbling" in the first song. Track 6 responds in asort of I don't care kind of way. No watter what nasty there is, there's still so much love, and yes, a lot of it comes from tender sex we are always capable no matter what. Then there's track 7, where we want to build something, but one of us wants to flee. This song goes to him or me, cause we're both so young. Track 8 is what echoes that, where we're in love, then one of us is blindsided and pissed off when the other leaves. Track 9 is the dumper's answer, in which they respond that, when given an ultimatium, leaving was preferable. Track 10 is so screamingly emo, and I must apologize, but that's really the feeling of being left. Track 11 is teh sadness and quiet acceptance of knowing not only that the other person is gone, but that you still love them. Track 12 only reinforces that, and this is when we start talking again and remember that we know each other, and you must pardon my cliche, better than we know ourselves. Track 13 pleads "I need you to pretend that we are in love again," but also is bitter ("your perfect truth is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get buy.") This is the bitterness of taking back someone who's been a dickface. Track 14 is the joy of falling in love with someone again, and Track 15 is the quiet moments where you know you're with this person forever. Track 16 is the energetic, exciting moments, when you're full of love. Track 17 is a perfect song, cause it hints at the sickness that can still linger, and the uncertainity that still persists, but the knowledge that this is part of what makes the relationship work, though perhaps leaving is still something to consider. And Track 18 sums up nicely, saying, "fuck all that, love is weird, and strange, and hard, but for some reason we're special, and you can all bite me." I like this mix also, cause musically it creates and mood of sadness, and to me really captures the hurt of love. The end.

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