Artist	Song
BOO RADLEYS	The Queen Is Dead
APPLIANCE	Fruits Of The Sea
CURE	Possession
ARAB STRAP	Cherubs
NEW ORDER	Truth (bbc session)
CLAN OF XYMOX	Muscoviet Musquito
JOY DIVISION	Heart And Soul
AND ALSO THE TREES	Slow Pulse Boy
DEATH CULT	Ghost Dance
DIRTY ON PURPOSE	Monument
I LOVE YOU BUT I'VE CHOSEN DARKNESS	The Less You See
CURE	Scared As You
MOGWAI	Nick Drake
LEGENDARY PINK DOTS	Belladona
DEAD CAN DANCE	Tell Me About The Forest (You Once Called Home)
ORCHESTRAL MANOEUVRES in the DARK	The Avenue
EPIC45	You Said Nothing
JUNKIE XL featuring ROBERT SMITH	Perfect Blue Sky

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Made for my boyfriend at the brink of what is to be our end or perhaps our begininng... it is a long story no one should want to hear. Anyway, I suppose listening to it now there is an underlying of hopelessness which I had not fully realized while making it. It must have just suited my mood in a way at the time and actually by the time it was finished just became one subliminal statement. I try to always leave some fragments of 'hope' in my mixes as bleak as some of them may be sounding. It is like life, I just can not leave it with an overwhelming hopelessness. The mix can also be likened to a relationship, however well it is going or not. This mix for instance, has some yearning elements, which is how I was feeling at time. Yearning for times before, pining even and then feeling helpless, but always trying not to lose hold of my optimism, being hopeful for a happy ending, or at least being able to keep my head together should it all crumble to pieces. All in all a very personal mix which has actually been the case it seems for my more recent mixes. I used photography for the cover art rather than a painting as I usually do. The cover Jane Reece 'Inspiration' and back Floris Neususs 'Stuhlpaar', both superimposed photographs which give the illusion of a ghosts. I used another Floris Neususs photo for the inner sleeve 'Orpheus II' which shows a man and a woman's silhouettes. They seem very close to one another yet are also completely constrasting. Unforunately bleak wins in the end as every lyric in the title track The Cure's "Fear Of Ghosts" will so blatantly tell you.


"Like a feeling that I'm down
Down inside my heart
Like I'm looking out through
Splitting bloodred
Windows in my heart
From a higher up than heaven
And a harder down than stone
Shake the fear that always clawing
Pulls me clawing down alone
As I spitting splitting bloodred
Break in windows in my heart
And the past is taunting
Fear of ghosts
Is forcing me apart
And the further I get
From the things that I care about
The less I care about
How much further away I get. . .

I am lost again
With everything gone
And more alone
Than I have ever been
I expect you to understand
To feel it too
But I know that even if you will
You cannot ever help me
Nor can I
Ever help you" Hear this mix in its entirety at this link: http://ihungaroundinyoursoundtrack.blogspot.com/2008/12/shows-6-7-fear-of-ghosts-pts-1-2.html

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